Tuesday, March 22, 2016

When I Stopped Asking in Prayer - Part One

A few months back, I stopped asking in prayer. My prayers were not being answered.  I have prayed (others have prayed) for a home of our own for eight years.  It never worked out.  Once the mortgage broker told us he was 90% sure he got us a mortgage, we were the 10%.  Last summer we tried again and again we were turned down.  This time for a different reason than before.  We lost all hope that it would ever happen.

Last year, a job opportunity came up around our area for Terry.  It would mean only a 20 minute drive to work instead of the 60 minutes it takes now. That job it would have been great for our family.  Things were lining up, things looked good and then it didn't happen.

Terry had an opportunity to travel with his job over to Europe, we thought, what a great pick me up. But that too didn't work out.

When I look at our over all picture, my complaints are small.  I have much to be grateful for, much to be thankful for. The biggest and most important, family and health.  And I know this, but sometimes it gets to me. The desert period when you are just waiting for something to happen.

With all these opportunities that didn't work out. Things that would a great benefit our family, I thought to myself 'Why bother praying? If God is going to do what he wants to do, why should I ask in pray?"

We hear these scriptures, we see them on social media:

Matthew 7:7-8 (NIV)
“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

Matthew 21:22(NIV)22 If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer

Mark 11:24 (NIV)
24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours

Luke 11:9 (NIV)
“So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

I believed what I was asking for in prayer. Those prayers didn't work out.

One day, I saw a women, Tammy, at Church.  She really knows her stuff.  I asked her 'Why should I pray about things, if it is God's Will and he will do what he wants anyway?' This had been playing through my mind for a while. 

She answered me this: One day my son was going to a friends house, but his ride didn't work out. He told me this, with the wanting of me to offer him a ride. I was willing to drive him there.  But I was waiting for him to ask me.

That made me think, maybe God is willing to give me things, but he is just waiting for me to ask.  And just because some of his other answers were "Not Yet", didn't mean that all prayer request would get the same answer.

Monday, March 7, 2016

The Waiting Game

Some times I am guilty of this, playing the waiting game.  Waiting for the weekend, waiting for the next pay check, waiting for bed time, waiting for nicer weather, waiting for the next holiday. It is like I am waiting for something better to come along.

The problem with the waiting game is that my focus is on what is to come, rather than what is all ready right here. What small moments have I missed?

As Oprah Winfrey said:

"Slow Down - Be Present in Your Life
The only time that you ever live your life is in this present moment"

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

Last Tuesday

After Practice

This Picture was taken last Tuesday after hockey practice.  It is one of my favourite photos.  Last week, Terry was very sick.  Stay in bed, not eating, not checking his phone sick.  Ri had it and so did the baby. For some reason it passed over me and J.

With Terry being sick, I took Ri to practice.  Normally I stay home with the boys and make supper. I was over half way to the hockey rink when I realized practice was at the other rink.  The other rink was in the opposite direction. Luckily we left a little early and Ri was only a few minutes late getting on the ice.  You're such a good hockey mom, I thought to myself.

Thursday, February 11, 2016

5 Day Weekend

The kids had a five day weekend.  It all started last Friday with a snow day, followed by two more snow days on Monday and Tuesday.  But the weather is clear and sunny today. The kids are in school, hubby at work and my little one is sleeping. I am thinking of having another cup of coffee.

The weeks have been going by, filled with school, hockey and restless nights.  My little one has been waking up two to three times a night plus wanting to start his day between 4:30am and 5:30am.  It has been leaving me pretty tired during the day.

For the past two weeks, I have been trying to make healthier meals for supper. I have been using recipes from a weight watchers cookbook.  That was a bit of a fail.  It takes me forever to prepare and then the kids tell me they don't like it.  When I plan meals for next week, I think I'll just add more salads.

We got bunk beds delivered from ikea yesterday, two sets.  Ri and J are very excited.  We haven't opened the boxes yet. 

I am thinking, I should take advantage and take a nap as well.

Monday, January 18, 2016

Strange But Yummy

Strange But Yummy Food Combinations

~ Popcorn with M&Ms (almond, peanuts, peanut butter)
~ Wendy's french fries dipped in the Wendy's frosty
~ Jello on buttered toast
~ Parmesan cheese (refrigerated) on green apple slices 
~ Vinegar on deep fried fries
~ Apple slices with plain salted chips
~ Nacho chips dipped in chocolate dip
~ Peanut butter and banana sandwiches
Some you may already know, some may be new to you.  Feel free to add your own strange but yummy food combinations.

Friday, January 15, 2016

J's Birthday Cake

We celebrated J's birthday earlier this month.  He turned eight.  These eight years have gone by so quickly.  Seems like time speeds up with each year.  J is so awesome. When he smiles, my heart swells.  I love seeing him grow and learn.  I love hearing the things he has to say. He is so sweet to his sister and brother. And he loves to play sports.  I think if he could play sports all day, he would. I love him so much.

For the past couple of years, J wanted a hockey rink cake for his birthday.  I could never find hockey players to put on the cake. This year he wanted a hockey cake again.  And again I looked for hockey players, no such luck.  Then one evening, flipping thought the channels, the movie '13 Going on 30' was on television. I got inspired to use pictures of the kids as hockey players, like the doll house in the movie.

J's Birthday Cake

I looked through photos of the kids, looking for hockey pictures.  I has thrilled to find pictures of J in net taken from both ends of the rink.  Got the pictures developed, cut them out and used tape to stick them to popsicle sticks. 

The cake, is actually two cakes, side by side.  I made them from scratch, chocolate, gluten free. Terry decorated the cake and made the boards.  I cut out business logos from the flyers and taped them along the boards.  Not pictured above but added was a stand with pictures of the kids watching the game. 

J loved his cake.  He thought it was pretty cool. For J's birthday this year he played hockey in the morning and we went and saw Star Wars in the afternoon.  His supper choice, lasagna.

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Quite Christmas

Our Christmas was quite. We spent a lot of days in our pajamas, we played games, watched movies and had take out.  I was very much looking forward to Christmas Vacation.  Even more so than summer vacation.  Christmas vacation came with a break.  No packing lunches, no waking up baby from a nap because we had to be some where, no out the door early mornings, no hockey practices, no plans.  It was a nice break that we all needed.

Usually on Christmas morning we would have a big breakfast, eggs, bacon, hash browns, toast.  But earlier that week Terry and I decided not to do that this year. We decided to make it simply, toast and fruit.  This plan worked out very well this year, even more so than we could have imaged.  J woke up just after 3am. By 9am, Terry and I both had separate 1 1/2 hour naps.  J and Ri were still going strong. 

 Christmas Day

The weather on Christmas Day was beautiful.  There was no snow, mild temperatures. One of the things I always wanted to do, was to go for a walk on Christmas Day.  This year, we got to do that.  We were little more prepared this year with our turkey, it wasn't frozen on Christmas Day.  So, the turkey went in the oven early and we went for a walk/bike ride.

 J and Ri on their bikes

 E loving the water

Out in Nature, Christmas Day

We are back in the swing of things again.  Christmas Vacation is over. Kids are ending their second week back of school.  The kids had their first snow day on Wednesday. We are back in to hockey practice and J celebrated his 8th birthday.  I still have snow flakes on the living room ceiling, lights around the room and lights in the bathroom.  I may take them down at the end of the month.  

Our Christmas was quite and low key, it was just what we needed.